The Well of Onliness (A Pre-Pride Week Rip-off)
Did God make me this way? ... or was it my first boyfriend?
The emotional rollercoaster is finally back on track. For awhile I was beginning worry that I would never doubt my thoughts, feelings or experiences ever again.
In fact, this mood fluctuation (which, I'm always being told, is "perfectly normal") has only enhanced my capacity for introspection and indecisiveness, although I've wondered for years if I've been trying too hard to have what I can never have, to be someone I can never be. Is the reason I've spent so much of my life alone obvious to everyone but me? Should I go ahead and re-assign my Salon.com profile to the other side?
Likes:
"In the Life"
bears (or in straight parlance, "I ♡ fat boys") Kashmir
really cool women
geeks
fixing things
(most) competitive sports
sex with someone who knows what (s)he's doing
Dislikes:
"One Tree Hill"
Abercrombie and Fitch
Zeppelin IV
really cool men
girlie girls
feeling helpless and confused
New Games
98% of total sexual experience to date
Food for thought...
chopped hair off 4 times since age 22 (the "coming out" age)
well-known breast obsession
feel at ease among the queer
didn't kiss a boy until age 14
penises are kind of weird
Not bloody likely...
missed my long hair after 2 months
want the breasts, not the woman
will identify with any marginalized group, as long as it has a hit TV show
never kissed a girl
penises are kind of cute - plus, really enjoy a good poking
And finally, the Greek Chorus...
Dr. A: "Why do you think you're a lesbian, just because you're miserable and alone?"
Chris W.: "You would make an excellent gay man."
Guy in bed: "I can't help fantasizing about you and --"
Me: "Maybe it would just be easier this way."
Mom: "Of course I'll still love you. But I want grandchildren."
Anyone who wishes to help me answer this question, feel free to comment in a thoughtful and informed manner that does not break the strict Internet and Internet2 obscenity laws in WY, VA, DE, IA, and ND.
PS: I would prefer that respondents be male and straight - but (obviously) I'm open to suggestion.
The emotional rollercoaster is finally back on track. For awhile I was beginning worry that I would never doubt my thoughts, feelings or experiences ever again.
In fact, this mood fluctuation (which, I'm always being told, is "perfectly normal") has only enhanced my capacity for introspection and indecisiveness, although I've wondered for years if I've been trying too hard to have what I can never have, to be someone I can never be. Is the reason I've spent so much of my life alone obvious to everyone but me? Should I go ahead and re-assign my Salon.com profile to the other side?
Likes:
Dislikes:
Food for thought...
Not bloody likely...
And finally, the Greek Chorus...
Anyone who wishes to help me answer this question, feel free to comment in a thoughtful and informed manner that does not break the strict Internet and Internet2 obscenity laws in WY, VA, DE, IA, and ND.
PS: I would prefer that respondents be male and straight - but (obviously) I'm open to suggestion.
posted at 11:13 PM
5 Comments:
What was the question?
I wish to comment in a thoughtful and informed manner but I have a current restraining order in place for breaking the strict Internet2 obscenity laws in WY. One "insightful" comment on a WY blog on my part and the Feds showed up my door - can't anyone take a joke anymore?
Kurt-
The question is so obvious it is staring you in the facve and you can't even see it. Welcome to my world.
Exsqueeze me, but Pride Week (aka Gay Shame Week) is not over. In fact, it is only just starting. And I should know, missy. The real issue is, why does no one else have anything to say? Should I take the deafening silence to mean "yeah, go ahead and be gay - given your track record, you're probably better off. It couldn't hurt, anyway" ? Or is it that no one actually cares about my happiness? (which is really the same thing if you think about it).
lisa h. i think you need to get a little more crafty & get outta your head.
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